Paraketamol
04-04-2009, 08:56 PM
A while back I had a period where I was abusing GBL quite heavily. I went through around 6ml a day for a month or so. Sometimes I'd use 10ml or more in one day and go on all night binges. I absolutely loved it and it was making me more happy, sociable and talkative than anything else ever has. And don't even mention sex on gbl :D
After I had been using it for a while I started to get really vivid bad dreams/nightmares every night, I would wake up feeling distressed with my heart beating rapidly :eek: I would get bad tremors/shakes during the day and I also noticed my mood decreasing a lot when I wasn't up on GBL, I was feeling moody and snappy. I was psychologically addicted but luckily not physically, one day I made the decision stop cold turkey.
It was hard going for a couple of weeks, the nightmares and tremors continued, finally tapering off to a stop. I chose not to use any alcohol/weed/benzos in this period. I wanted to be totally 'clean'.
After a fortnight I felt pretty much recovered, since then I have used a variety of substances to try and keep things cool (weed, alcohol, benzos, opiates, meph etc), the only one I still use regularly is weed (after giving that up for two months!). I always feel like I need to be 'on' something, soberness is boringness to me. I know that I should try and find a hobby to take my mind away from drugs but that's easier said than done, as a lot of us know :o
Basically, I'm wondering if it will be ok for me to start using GBL again? This time I could try and moderate my use a bit more, and I'm thinking that maybe weed would help deal with the dreams as I would be more 'knocked out' when I was sleeping, also a nice bong in the morning may well deal with the shakes. I wasn't smoking at all when I was abusing the GBL.
Any thoughts?
Peace out.
After I had been using it for a while I started to get really vivid bad dreams/nightmares every night, I would wake up feeling distressed with my heart beating rapidly :eek: I would get bad tremors/shakes during the day and I also noticed my mood decreasing a lot when I wasn't up on GBL, I was feeling moody and snappy. I was psychologically addicted but luckily not physically, one day I made the decision stop cold turkey.
It was hard going for a couple of weeks, the nightmares and tremors continued, finally tapering off to a stop. I chose not to use any alcohol/weed/benzos in this period. I wanted to be totally 'clean'.
After a fortnight I felt pretty much recovered, since then I have used a variety of substances to try and keep things cool (weed, alcohol, benzos, opiates, meph etc), the only one I still use regularly is weed (after giving that up for two months!). I always feel like I need to be 'on' something, soberness is boringness to me. I know that I should try and find a hobby to take my mind away from drugs but that's easier said than done, as a lot of us know :o
Basically, I'm wondering if it will be ok for me to start using GBL again? This time I could try and moderate my use a bit more, and I'm thinking that maybe weed would help deal with the dreams as I would be more 'knocked out' when I was sleeping, also a nice bong in the morning may well deal with the shakes. I wasn't smoking at all when I was abusing the GBL.
Any thoughts?
Peace out.